fiesta

i actually had an amazing weekend, even though there were some pretty... um... unexpected twists and turns in the plot. and some expected ones, too.


and i literally only have one picture of the party. and that was because i simply HAD to get photographic evidence of theo's expression. only reason i didn't get that many pictures was because it was fairly dim and people got pissed off at me for using flash, though. OTHERWISE THERE WOULD BE PICTURES. 
i would have forced them to face my wrath.


one of the many reasons i should {and should not} be allowed to have my own camera. 


but i am one very happy chica right now. even though the stress of exams and other impending doom is pressing down upon me... i'm happy. i'm the happiest i've been for quite some time.


says the girl who has sobbed her eyes out to three books and two episodes of BONES in the past two weeks.


ANYWAYS.


i'm happy because i have raphael back. as my best friend, that is. 


the gang was all at the party on saturday apart from gabriel. he thought the party was going to be trashy, and it wasn't REALLY. not like OMGSHIELDYOUREYESHIDEYOWIFEANCHILLUN trashy. there were a couple of people who.. well. yeah. it was a party. a party with parental supervision, but a party all the same.


the birthday girls were their usual primped selves, though i have to admit i LOVED tory's dress. mostly because i have a thing for ruffles.


keep in mind that these are people i see a couple of times a year. that makes me able to stand their... um... incompetence isn't a nice word but it's the only one that pops into my head.


anyways, they were gracious hostesses though i arrived a tad bit early, hugging and squealing and complimenting me over my dolled-up-ness and electric colored shoes. i, of course, wished them both happy birthday and fussed over them an appropriate amount until evangeline arrived.


there was definitely squealing then.


while i've seen evvie the most recently and most frequently of my lovely quartet of friends, i never get tired of seeing her. it might have to do with the fact that she's the only other female in the group or that she's my sister or simply that i talk to her the most. and she's adorable when she's all smitten over a certain someone.


who was SUPPOSED to go to said party, but, when i called him {and he had no idea who i was because he's never met me in his life} he had "company." *is suspicious*


the next to arrive was theo and his always cute-as-a-button younger brother. of course, we hung out with the older of the pair, seeing as he is evvie's bestie soul mate {dare i compare them to gabriel and i? they're slightly more.... telepathic than us, but i suppose i do dare.}, dancing sillily to the pulsing music as more people continued to trickle in. and then....


raph arrived.


i don't know what it is, but i always get the worst case of nerves if there's even the slightest possibility of running into raph. if i have plans with him, i'm fine, but if it's something like a party or a dance, i start chewing on hang nails or pencils or basically anything i can chew on that isn't poisonous.


especially during that two year period where we weren't talking. at all. 


yeah, the nerves were definitely bad then.


it might just be because i can't even explain the relationship raph and i have to myself.


so. 
raph got there.
i swear i was not watching the door for him to get there.


ANYWAYS. {i swear, rissa. stop distracting yourself.}


evvie got a hug, and then i was offered one, too. which surprised me because ever since homecoming i have even less of a clue of where we stand than i ever have before.


and we danced. all of us, that is. we actually let go and had fun and danced. 


there are very few times when we are like that. and it's really nice when we are. 


and then, as the night continues on, my people begin to leave. first theodore, who was claiming fatigue, and his brother, then evangeline and her sister.


which left me and raph. and a bunch of the guys i used to hang out with when i still went to that school. what can i say? i may have never been a tomboy, but i hung with the boys.


still do.


it was awkward for about two seconds, and then raph forced me to start dancing with them and a couple of girls who were vaguely familiar but apparently knew exactly who i was {weirded out? yes. cool with it after a while? yes.}


and then some drama happened. i'm not going to go into details, but long story short, people were dumbasses and some of us left the party for a little while.


here's the part that i told a couple of people {possibly including my english teacher.... *shifty eyes*} and made them laugh pretty hard.


so. raph and i were in the same car when we left the party for a bit, mainly because he has a car and is the only person i trust to drive.


of course, the one time i'm alone with a guy in a car.... we start listening to classic {aka sinatra, bing crosby, nat king cole...} christmas music and playing chess on his iphone. CHESS, for crying out loud.


but we also reminisced on ye golden olden days, without a word spoken of our fight.


i didn't think he remembered. but he does.


which has made me happy for the past, oh, forty eight or so hours. and daydreamy.


plus, he's making up for not coming to my birthday party by agreeing to go ice skating with me sometime over winter break. which will probably be an utter disaster, but it'll be fun all the same.


i'm a happy girl.

p.s. we're watching dead poet society in pre-AP english. I FINALLY GET TO SEE THIS MOVIE *squee!!!!*


p.p.s. i'm really glad he didn't come to my party right about now. a) can you say AWKWARDDDDD? and b) um, yeah. he did not need to meet he-who-shall-not-be-named. so he didn't. thank god.