caramel coffee = antidote to the world

it has been a long fucking week. longer than usual.
i think i say that every week, but put an entire year into one week and that was this week.
but i'm finally sort of starting to feel like me again. thank god. i've felt like a zombie the past couple of weeks and have been sleeping as much as i possibly could without feeling any better at all. it sucked.
and then, last night, i stayed up until two or three {i have no idea when i passed out with my light on} and woke up bright eyed and bushy tailed with my alarm.
even though i fell asleep for a little while longer.
STILL. bright eyed and bushy tailed.
it felt good.
plus i have finally learned how to make just the right sized pot of coffee to fill up only my travel mug. and i have caramel coffee. it has been by saving grace &hearts

and now for your fill in the blank friday from lauren at the little things we do!


* love is a choice. something hard for me to believe in. amazing. heart-warming. heart-breaking. work. incredible. painful. something that happens only after there are no walls.

* being in love feels like ... i wouldn't know..... but it should feel like butterflies and heart flutters and frustration and contentness and, at the end of the day, it should be a warm, soft blanket to wrap yourself up in.

* my favorite quote about love is {this totally shows my book-worm-y-ness...} "I wanted so badly to lie down next to her on the couch, to wrap my arms around her and sleep. Not fuck, like in those movies. Not even have sex. Just sleep together, in the most innocent sense of the phrase. But I lacked the courage and she had a boyfriend and I was gawky and she was gorgeous and I was hopelessly boring and she was endlessly fascinating. So I walked back to my room and collapsed on the bottom bunk, thinking that if people were rain, I was a drizzle and she was a hurricane." - John Green, Looking for Alaska
{i love john green sooo much (ms. bisig and i have this in common. all the more reason to love her.) and this definitely captures it. whatever it is.}


* the most important thing in a relationship is um. i don't think i'm really qualified in answering this question....
but, honestly, communication. definitely. it's a two-way street, though. you can't bitch about someone not talking after not talking. it doesn't work like that. it also needs to have an openess conveyed in so many ways. closed minds are closed hearts.

* a "deal breaker" for me in a relationship is not listening to what i have to say. my words may be far and few {well, verbal words...} but when i speak it's probably important. {also known as DEFINITELY important}


* the way i show love in my relationships is i'm very much a touchy person. i rub shoulders and necks when people seem stressed, trail fingers down arms in sympathy, squeeze hands and give tight hugs when nothing else will communicate my emotions. it just doesn't always translate, unfortunately.

* i love mi raphael angelo.


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