sometimes you just need girl time

it's sometimes. as a female, sometimes you just need girl time.

and this is coming from a girl who doesn't tend to socialize with other girls that much. think jess from new girl - still really feminine, just gets along with guys better. (as friends, guys don't tend to judge on appearance, give good advice, and are always willing to beat someone up for you. ALWAYS.) (mine are, at least.)

seeing as my twin and total bestie live in a different town than me, i don't get to have my girl time very often with her. maybe a few times a year. because my young butt can't chauffer herself around {yet} and evvie's parents don't exactly let her drive very many places.

i used to have a lot of reallyreallyclose gal pals, but such is not the case anymore. mainly because girls get mean as they hit tweenagedom and then teenagerdom. we get catty and some of us fight the social ranks whereas the rest of us are happy to stay where we are and being a teenage girl is DIFFICULT, okay?

i haven't had a real female best friend other than evvie since fifth grade. and the friendships that you see in all of these books - over at each other's houses all of the time, hanging out everyday after school and every weekend - they just don't happen around here. we tend to be so spread out that it just doesn't work.


plus i just tend to prefer to be alone. i'm an only child, and that is a result of it.

but sometimes you get girl time, say, in your yearbook production class where you're about to cry and one of your closest friends who you've known since second grade but never really got close to until the second semester of your sophomore year reaches out and hugs you and refuses to let go until you tell her what's wrong.

that "you" in the above scenario was me today. the "her"? that's my friend mackenzie. 


i'm used to being the "momma" of my groups of friends - it's just my nature. i can't help myself. if somebody needs me, i'm going to be there to help in some way, shape, or form. even though i'm typically the youngest of said groups of friends.

i'm strong for other people. mackenzie lets me be weak. i need that sometimes.


kinz is this ferocious biracial lioness MMA freaking NINJA goddess and quite possibly one of the most lovely people i have ever met. she is the protagonist from a well-written book come to life. there are very few people i know of who are as genuine as she and her brother ben are.

she's beyond her years. we bonded in english class last year {we have a mutual love for that teacher - otherwise we would never be taking AP english with her next year with all of the hell that entails} and we're bonding in another english class this year, as well as our yearbook class. i sit next to her baby brother at lunch, and her boyfriend in my economics class. we chat about books and pictures and cameras and bones {the show... not actual bones} and i swat at her curls every time i see her and fold into her vanilla-and-brown-sugar hugs when i need a friend.

thank you for being there, mackenzie.