sometimes you just need girl time

it's sometimes. as a female, sometimes you just need girl time.

and this is coming from a girl who doesn't tend to socialize with other girls that much. think jess from new girl - still really feminine, just gets along with guys better. (as friends, guys don't tend to judge on appearance, give good advice, and are always willing to beat someone up for you. ALWAYS.) (mine are, at least.)

seeing as my twin and total bestie live in a different town than me, i don't get to have my girl time very often with her. maybe a few times a year. because my young butt can't chauffer herself around {yet} and evvie's parents don't exactly let her drive very many places.

i used to have a lot of reallyreallyclose gal pals, but such is not the case anymore. mainly because girls get mean as they hit tweenagedom and then teenagerdom. we get catty and some of us fight the social ranks whereas the rest of us are happy to stay where we are and being a teenage girl is DIFFICULT, okay?

i haven't had a real female best friend other than evvie since fifth grade. and the friendships that you see in all of these books - over at each other's houses all of the time, hanging out everyday after school and every weekend - they just don't happen around here. we tend to be so spread out that it just doesn't work.


plus i just tend to prefer to be alone. i'm an only child, and that is a result of it.

but sometimes you get girl time, say, in your yearbook production class where you're about to cry and one of your closest friends who you've known since second grade but never really got close to until the second semester of your sophomore year reaches out and hugs you and refuses to let go until you tell her what's wrong.

that "you" in the above scenario was me today. the "her"? that's my friend mackenzie. 


i'm used to being the "momma" of my groups of friends - it's just my nature. i can't help myself. if somebody needs me, i'm going to be there to help in some way, shape, or form. even though i'm typically the youngest of said groups of friends.

i'm strong for other people. mackenzie lets me be weak. i need that sometimes.


kinz is this ferocious biracial lioness MMA freaking NINJA goddess and quite possibly one of the most lovely people i have ever met. she is the protagonist from a well-written book come to life. there are very few people i know of who are as genuine as she and her brother ben are.

she's beyond her years. we bonded in english class last year {we have a mutual love for that teacher - otherwise we would never be taking AP english with her next year with all of the hell that entails} and we're bonding in another english class this year, as well as our yearbook class. i sit next to her baby brother at lunch, and her boyfriend in my economics class. we chat about books and pictures and cameras and bones {the show... not actual bones} and i swat at her curls every time i see her and fold into her vanilla-and-brown-sugar hugs when i need a friend.

thank you for being there, mackenzie.

things that make me happy

hi there, and happy monday.
contradiction of terms, i know, but still.


so, to make the fact that it's MONDAY, of all of the days in the week, better, a list of things that make me very happy {in no particular order}:


1. chocolate milk

 

 i don't know why i've been liking chocolate milk so much lately. but it makes me feel like a little kid, so i'll roll with it :D

2. books {and 3. fluffy things}

i love books. a lot. being an only child, reading and writing were my company for many years. right now, i'm reading the hunger games {for me} and the scarlet letter {for school}. oh and my cat was {is} also company who is currently playing dead next to the pool table. the odd creatures in this family, i swear *shakes head*

4. sweets

my sweet tooth is practically legendary around my family and friends {as is my appetite - i may look skinny but i can eat a LOT}. cupcakes, muffins, cookies, candy, ice cream.... it all makes me happy.

5. pink

i don't know what's with me lately. i am typically ANTI pink and love things that are red and black and all of that jazz. but... i really like pink lately. it makes me smiley.


6. dresses

i really don't. i don't like pants. 

but i do like dresses. 
oh, and to all of those people who ask why i'm "all dressed up" while i'm wearing a dress..... dress = one, comfy item. i throw on a dress and shoes and i go. sweats = a lot more work. and less cute. so :P


7. music {specifically, my ipod}

music has always been my saving grace. especially with the troubles i have with talking {i stumble, i stutter, i babble awkwardly and confuse people by forgetting important words}, what's engraved on my itouch i got for christmas in 2009 is really true - when words fail, music speaks. so, music makes me really happy. which is why i have a little bit of everything on my ipod.
oh, and the fact that i can type a chapter {yes, i really have done this. i've typed 10 thousand or so words on my ipod, methinks.}/type a blog post/post a tweet/research something on it makes me love it all the more.


7. random spastic dance parties {with anyone}

these happen a lot at my house. and at school. and basically anywhere. but if i hear a song i like on the radio {or on my ipod} damn straight i'm going to start dancing if i feel like it. and i will more than likely make whoever's around {including my cat} dance with me. the cat doesn't tend to appreciate my dancing.
{yes, this does include spinning me out into the middle of the street. you know who you are.}

8. computers.

 most days, if not all, just spending a little time on the computer will make me a happier person. whoever had the idea to put cute cats and funny captions together...... thank you.


9. silk.

there are few things i love more than stuff that's soft to touch {hence the reason my cat hates me - she hates all forms of affection asides from food.} which means i really love silk. which is why my silk robe makes me really really happy after a long monday.


10. le boyf

of course my boyfriend makes me happy. he's one of my favorite people in the world. his hugs, the way he smells, the sound of his voice... yeah, they all make me happy. veddy veddy happy :)

 apparently i'm very pretty today.


{all images via weheartit. no copyright infringement intended.}

a week in review

so, my first week of junior year is {finally} over.
it was a long week, to say the least.

i'm the theatre teacher's student aid first period {because there was NO WAY i was sticking in study hall. uh uh. nope. not happenin'.}

my Pre-AP English class is going to be sooooo intense, but the people in there are AMAZING. we already have a list of about 8 major assignments for the quarter... meaning at least one a week, some weeks more, as well as in-class work and homework.

i'm still completely dreading my spanish iii class. i only like one of the school's spanish teachers, and i don't have him this year. my spanish teacher i do not like in the least.


chemistry..... between the teacher {once upon a time, he almost blew The Boy up on a daily basis, no joke} and the people {zoe. krista. cam. aleksei.} this is going to be a dangerous {but still completely HIIIIIILARIOUS} class. 


trig is of course my longest class and going to be all....meh -_-


but then i have my lunch buddeh, ben. he is the only okay freshman. i love that kid. he was also our unofficial guard guy :D


econ it'll be a miracle if i don't fall asleep every day. but it'll be an easy a because i'm excellent at doing outlines.


and then.... *drumroll* YEARBOOK PREP!


yearbook prep has to be the best elective ever, but that is a well-kept secret. we get to LEAVE CAMPUS. to sell ads, run errands, etc. and we have no exam. 


in yearbook, there are probably around ten people in the entire class, three of which are juniors. we have to group up to sell ads (some of us can't drive, etc.). we were going to have an all junior group because maggie can drive. but she can only have one other person in the car with her. so i got grouped with a couple of senior girls.


this is going to be so amazing.


the first day that we went out to sell ads, we only went out to sell two, because they were close to each other and we have three weeks to sell, like, eleven ads. we sold them both. and we had fifteen minutes to kill, so we stopped at burger king.


because mrs. price just doesn't really care, as long as we do still sell ads.


cassie was treating kristen and i, but i refused to get anything. i need to start saving money because it basically sounds like, in order to not "owe" anybody, we're going to end up going different places and "treating" each other to something or other.


oh, and i get to see le boyf. which makes me so, so extremely happy <3


this is going to be my best year yet.