tick tock tick tock

as a junior, college is getting closer and closer. 
guidance counselors start coming into my classes, various colleges start emailing/calling/sending me letters (because, even though i opted to NOT share my personal information with colleges on my ACT account when i signed up for the test last year, they gave out my personal information. thankssomuch, idiots.), and friends start going on college visits.

this is really stressing some of the other juniors out. PSAT! ACT! college visit! GPA! oh no!


but it's not really stressing ME out. at all. 


for one thing, my ACT is out of the way, and i got a high enough score that it might not even be worth it to take it again in effort to get a higher score.
my gpa is roughly 3.7 (on a 4 point scale, not that weird 5 point honors scale) and i'm ranked 25 in the class (of like 300 people). if i keep a 4.0 this year, that should bump it up some.
the PSAT should be a piece of cake and i will hopefully score high enough to win me some good scholarships. from what i've read and heard, it will be so much less torture than the ACT was (and that was just because it was early and i didn't get enough sleep the night before).


another thing is i know what i want to be. i want to be a physical therapist. easy answer. (well, i also want to be a writer. but i don't need a degree for that.)


but i haven't gone on any college visits. at all. mostly because almost all of the colleges i want to go to are out of state. north carolina, tennessee, washington state... and i still don't know which one of those is my top choice.


more recently, i've been leaning towards north carolina. sunny, warm, close to beaches, closer to home than washington... it's just sort of drawing me to it.
but washington, oh washington. i want to live in seattle oh so badly. it's SEATTLE. i love rainy weather. i love semi-coldness. i love the idea of being in a city like that and being close to my canadians and it's SEATTLE. and it's far far far far away from this stupid, stupid town.


i'm torn.